Saturday while I was out and about my DIL called and asked if I’d like to hang out. So I adjusted my errands and included her and GD in a short shopping trip to the local warehouse store. Just before we left their apartment GD climbed into my lap without prompting and handed me a toy. I took this as significant, but then I am a Grandfather and everything GD does is significant.
Sunday was GD’s first B-day party. I gave her parents a potty chair and a gift card to purchase her something. I didn’t think she needed anymore toys even the ones purported to teach. So I opted for practical. This was not a leap. She doubtless will need clothes as she grows and the next size up is 18 months, so a few outfits will drift her way in the upcoming months.
I went to the party arriving just as X was getting out of her car. I had gone through the entire range of emotions anticipating she would attend. In the end I attended for myself, GD, S and DIL. To do less would have been chickenshit and I would regret it. The D is still affecting both of us. I was subdued and X did not acknowledge my presence or make eye contact the entire time we were at the party. I was the last person to leave. In retrospect I should have offered to help cleanup, but the kids seemed to want everyone out and I acted upon what I thought was a non verbal clue.
I meet with a loan officer today to refinance the house. It is the last requirement of the judgment entry. I have about 45 days left to complete it. I’m feeling neutral about this whole aspect. Just going through the mechanics of getting this accomplished. I hope to finally feel free of this mess and unencumbered move forward with my plans.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
