Thank you. This is so hard. But coming here and journaling and getting support for this weird way I'm working on my marriage (and me) keeps me on the path.
FloydMan, my S14 didn't speak to my H when he visited on Christmas, he pretended he was too sound asleep/sick. My s12 is winding up in my bed most nights. This is hard on the kids, no question. But I do know they'll look to you for how you're doing and you can add to their pain or help them manage it.
If my H leaving was devastating to me and I moped and wailed, they'd add concern for me on top of their own feelings. And it would definitely add to their anger at their dad.
I know I'll be OK, even better than OK. I know all you LBS will too.
For now, I am trying to hang onto my changes and make sure I haven't been paying lip service to them. After 16 years of education where giving back the right answers was rewarded, I want to make sure I remember who I am inside now, better than I remember calculus.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
