I don't want to talk about it, at least not right now, but please just know, I am in a very dark, hurt place right now...a nd I literally can't stop shaking. I don't know if it's because of this ... new stuff causing me so much pain or if i am diabetic and having problems but my body ssont' top shaking at hte moment.
I just... need to talk. need to do something. It's 4:11 am and I just got back from contemplating some very bad ideas..
I don't want anything right now but my baby girl. If I could grab her and let the rest of the world go to he11 I'd be fine. Stbxw can be the first to go.
i'll try to keep you guys updated, I'm sure I'll need to vent some more while healing.
M: 36/W: 28 T 11yrs / M 7yrs /1x 3yo D Sept: W Cheated w/ teen, BDrop. W Beast. Hated me. Oct: 18 (M license)W Asked for D Oct: 31 (Anniverary)W Paid Lawyer Nov1st: Both moved.
