Soul.Searching my way back.

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My previous threads. Lost and confused

The green green grass of home


The green green grass of home. (Part 2)


Well, it's official. He posted on FB that he is in a relationship. It really gets to me that he has the kids sleeping over there already. We have not even been deprecated for four months.

I don't want him back, he didn't treat me right, so why does it hurt so much, that he has moved on already?

I feel like I have been replaced, just like that.

I feel jelious, that my kids are spending time with them like a family.

I feel bitter that H seems so happy now and I'm still here, trying to heal.

I feel bitter that he is spending so much money on a car, just to fit them all in.

I feel jelious that he is treating her right but couldn't do that for me.

I feel used and betrayed that he can announce his relationship on FB, less than four months after he left. I feel a little humiliated actually.

I feel hurt at myself, for continually letting him hurt me.

I feel stuck and that scares me.

I feel depressed and just don't want to do anything and that scares me.

I feel like I failed my kids. Like I failed us.

I feel useless and powerless.

I feel like I can never plan for the future again.

I feel like I can never love like that again.

I feel hurt, alone and confused.

I feel like I have slid right back down the hill.

I fear becoming angry and bitter.