Sorry you are here, but you came to the right place for support.
Only you can decide to "give up." It doesn't sound like you are ready to do that. However, you have no control over what your W does/does not do.
Seeing your W brings you out of a funk? This will change over time. I felt that way w H for a long time, but now I feel the opposite--I feel better when he's not around. He too is involved w OW & wants a future w her.
As long as a OP is in the picture it is impossible to R. You have to work on yourself. Figure out what 180s you need to do--what did W complain about to you? Find GAL activities--things that make YOU happy. Find a way to relieve your anxiety-exercise helps a lot of us & there are so many good things that come from that.
Detaching is tough. I think that is something that comes over time when YOU are ready and have grieved yourself M as being over. (This doesn't mean you and your W can't have a new R down the road, but you would have to wipe the slate clean & she would have to be willing to put in the work).
Good luck & come here to vent often. You will get lots of good advice!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
