From Survivng to Thriving & backslides in between.

[AJM]

I agree with KD. I've been there too. Wanting to cut and run. Wondering why me? Why I'm the one that has to be responsible - alone. Wondering what would happen if I just up and left to start a new life the way I wanted to. Wondering what life would have been like if I had taken A instead of B.

I think that's the seeds of change, my dear. The desire comes before the first step. Change occurs from that. And its time you did start making some changes. Small, deliberate changes in the direction you want to go. Again

All it really says is you're not done with changes/transitions.

But think about it. You're not crazy. That's a great advantage. But you are re-assessing your life and you should. All the time.

You are lonely. You are not afraid. You are not without resources. You are very smart and compassionate. You are frustrated and angry. But you are not going to lie down and lose your mind

That's incredibly natural to feel that way, K. I feel it sometimes too. I have felt it this past year. It's new, but it's not unnatural and it's not as scary as you may feel.

You are still dealing with irrational ex, and otherwise have a lot on your plate. You didn't deserve any of it and you couldn't have seen it coming. He is stressing you and you don't have a great way to deal with it in the way your ego wants you to.

Wisdom doesn't come free. Neither does joy.

But you have the resources to see this through and come out much better than you went in. I see it.

Exquisite is right too. You wrote the answer.

Change isn't easy. If it was, everyone would look forward to it. But you can embrace it. You can let the rest of it go even more than you have. And you know you'll be ok. You know you'll have the chance to do what you want. You know you'll be able to let go of what you didn't plan for to get what you really want. And you'll do it with grace, dignity, and without hurting those around you that you love dearly.

I already know you will.

The feelings of wanting to run away will pass if you let them. I know, I've been there too. And when they do you'll be glad you felt them. It's part of reigniting that fire

Don't stay in the past too long, K. It's past for a reason. The future is where you need to be, and it'll be here soon. Take the small steps each day in that direction.

Peace,
AJ