OK well not sure were to start. I guess I am just going to vent a little.
I feel like crap. I hate what is going on in my life.. I hate life all together today... I need to send a note or text to WAW and hate that i have to do this. I hate the fact my WAW is being such a jerk to me and her mom. I think that the reason why I have not been invited over to foot ball with her Bro and a friend of hers is due to WAW being a jerk. Im sure she said something to them.
I know there is always hope in everything but I dont feel that way today. I have not had any communication with W since 12-31-12 wishing her a good day. I just dont get how the WAW can still be so angry for so long. I know it is not me. I have done noting but be nice to her in every way. I still got no thank you for the gift i gave her. I just dont get it at all... I am always told that she is angry at me but the real anger is that she is not happy with herself.
I am just not in a good spot and I have no coffee in my house. I just honestly just feel like this will never work out and i hate that. I just would like to have time with WAS and just talk. I just hate everything that she has put me thru.. I hate hate hate hate everything life everything..
OK well i dont feel any better now that i typed this but i need to go to store and get coffee
oh did i say i really hate things today wife is so effin mean at times. Is there really any chance? My coach told me sometimes things have to get worse before they get better. This all just [censored]
You can always have hope. Although it would seem that you really need to work on detachment. Stop worrying about what your w is doing or thinking and start thinking about getting yourself healthy and happy. LIVE FOR YOU!
Me 37/W 32 S 5 D 4 ILYBNILWY 5/12 Sep 8/12 Starting to find myself 11/12 on
You can always have hope. Although it would seem that you really need to work on detachment. Stop worrying about what your w is doing or thinking and start thinking about getting yourself healthy and happy. LIVE FOR YOU!
I have been doing for me and living life. It is just hard to not think about the one you love.. I will continue to try to detach more but with the guidance of my DB Coach. It just hurts.. I have been trying to do more for myself but I can say the winter is not easy for me I am sure there are others that feel the same. Summer i seem to deal better but winter I just get stuck in the house to long and the sun light is less. I may try to go to tanning booth to get some sun. It helped me last year////
Have you followed up on this? If not, why? Why are you sitting around in your house without any coffee? (sorry, but that line actually made me laugh)
Hey, if I didn't have any coffee I know I'd feel like doodoo, even if I had 3 wonderful wives at home.
Well T did fix the coffee problem. Im happy to see im not the only one that can not do anything till i have coffee. Im not as angry at this point too.
Well As fare as decorating well I have not done anything about that yet. I think that it was more of a compliment on how i set my house up.
I'm feel better now I was out visiting my mom in the nursing home. Driving home I had the feeling of going to drive past W house. But i stopped and just asked myself Hmmm what good will it do me? If she is home or out or what if she sees me. All that is not good for me. So I just came home.
Just sometimes it is hard to keep the hope or should i say it this way i just think that there may be something wrong with me for holding on to hope for this long. When i see no hope in her actions at this point. But God can do anything so I keep praying
OK well here is an other day that I'm not really in good space. I keep looking at the good things I have to try to get out of this funk. I am sure I'm not the only one that has these days.
The thing I am thinking about is this. I know that things will stay the same until some one makes a move or does something. I was told by my DB Coach that I need to send a text (it will be a long text) to W. This text has to do with a lot but in a few words it will say this " I know you have a lot that you want to say.I was thinking about the text you sent me the other day saying you are so angry about your family and them choosing to have contact with me. I will say that when I'm around them I do not talk about you or me AT ALL!! Even if they try to bring it up I do not feed into it. It hurts me to hear you say it is causing you to resent them. Please know that I did not and will not EVER disrespect you at all!!! I just get the feeling that you have a lot to say based on the lack of acknowledgement of any gifts give and any nice things said to you. If you would like to meet to talk about this and other things I am willing to sit and listen to what you have to say. I'. ready to listen with no holding back from you.."
So I have to sit here and think this out and try to send this text but Honestly I have some fear in doing this. Why I am not sure but One thing is i am afraid she is going to begin to Yell and I dont even want to deal with things that way.
You are right that nothing is likely to change until one of you makes a move or does something. This has gone on with no movement on her end long enough that no one could blame you for tiring of waiting for her, but that note sounds a little extreme to me. Did you express your reservations to your coach about sending it?
I definitely would not say anything about the gifts.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
NOt current on your whole thread, but read the last few posts. I agree w FY, not to say anything about the gifts. I would also change the last line to say, "I am hear to listen any time." The way you said it makes it sound like an open invite to spew.
I understand that being in limboland is an extremely difficult place to be. BUt, you have to be ready to accept her actions if you are thinking of pushing her to make some sort of decision. Are you?
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
You are right that nothing is likely to change until one of you makes a move or does something. This has gone on with no movement on her end long enough that no one could blame you for tiring of waiting for her, but that note sounds a little extreme to me. Did you express your reservations to your coach about sending it?
I definitely would not say anything about the gifts.
Hi FY yes i talked to my coach about this and well she is the one that put the gift comment in there. I am just not to ready to send this text out yet. I Know something has to be done and I am working on it. I can say I did text her today and that would be the first contact for a week. well she got the text and she started to reply but then just stopped. I can tell she was typing a reply on my i phone.
Maybe I need to lighten up the text i just dont know.....
