Just checked in. Had a weekend full of the flu at our house. D18 has a terrible case and we were at the ER today. She is doing much, much better now, but it was a long weekend.
It WILL get better. I call this my Cow Sh!t Story. When things get really bad, I think back to this infamous day in my life which ended with me being covered in cow sh!t.
Last year, around this time, I left a counseling session where H told me how little he thought of me and ever possible reason why and how he wanted me out of his life forever. I had no job, no income, a child with special needs and a million other obstacles.
I was heartbroken. Left the counseling session to arrive home and find D17 and her boyfriend had been in a fender bender in our car. D17's boyfriend fixed the broken wheel well using a drill and those plastic strip ties. Wonderful! Then, I learned that H's dog had run away. This was a geriatric dog who was deaf and blind and it was a terribly cold, winter day.
So, in my incredibly scattered and weary frame of mind, I proceeded to drive around the neighborhood and walk through corn fields in the dark clapping loudly for hours and hours. The geriatric dog could only hear claps so we had a neighborhood of people out clapping (minus H of course--who was too busy to help).
Anyway, we live in a rural area and I was driving in a corn field after someone said they had spotted our dog in this field. I got stuck about a mile into the field. I got stuck in cow poop. Cow Manure. All I could do was laugh.
The farmer had just covered his fields in a a few tons of cow poop and that's where I got stuck. I called H and he didn't answer the phone. I was covered in cow poop from head to toe by the time I got home. It was a great day!!
The moral is... The dog was found, the car unstuck...H was a jerk and still is and who knows what will happen with his MLC/pot-addled brain, but, on that day I had neighbors and friends come out of the woodwork to help me find the dog and get unstuck. Strangers helped me and the kids when my H wouldn't.
The world is full of good people who can see the fact from the crap and will help make a bad situation better if you ask for help. The truth will always rise to the surface and you will be OK.
It will be OK. Breathe.
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
