Being there for my kids, and a PMA is about all I have to focus on at the moment.
Not really interesting, rather frustrating to not have 100% memory and have to ask / be told what happened. I'm working on the forgiveness to myself aspect. Thanks for the reminder too!
So here's something just weird, go figure, my sich has something weird to it. Anyways, I'm folding laundry and W sneaks up behind me. She / the kids are not supposed to be back yet. Evidently S7 didn't want to go to her Mom's for dinner and wanted to stay with me. She asked me if it was okay by herself, he was not in the room. I said sure. I did go ahead and ask if she has filed yet, she denies it. I also asked if she still had her wedding rings, b/c when I have been putting stuff away, I peeked into her open jewelry box and didn't see them where they normally are. She said they're still there. I then proceeded to ask her to let me know when she files, as I don't want it happen at work / want to be a little prepared. She said she would. So we'll see about that. Lastly, she then tells me that we may have to do 7 days on / 7 days off, instead of this 4/ 3 split thingy were doing right now. I wonder what changed in the past few hours since she's been gone with the kids.
So, we told S7 that he could choose to stay with me, b/c I was going to leave for a few days or go to MILs and play with his cousin. He automatically started to cry and said, "You're going to get a divorce aren't you?" Pretty much started to set of my tears so I had to look away and take a deep breath. Anyways, there was W and I standing in the driveway with S8 trying to encourage him to choose whatever he wanted to do, stay with me and play video games or go and play with his cousin. "Mom and Dad just need some space right now" I did look at W, and say, "symbolism?" She nodded. S7 ultimately choose to go play with cousin, as they only get to see each other once or twice a year.
Maybe that interaction wasn't per most of the DB standards, but at this point, I've made much BIGGER mistakes, so I figured I'd ask a few ?s and what not.
I feel like I have to be on guard and want to make sure I'm not taken advantage of. I don't want to challenge her on some of this stuff, yet I don't want her to be one who dictates how everything goes.
Last thought for now...my house is totally empty. It stinks. I have a basketball game on just to provide background noise. I remember the day when I looked forward to a little peace and quiet. This is not what I had in mind.
Anyways, I'm folding laundry and W sneaks up behind me. She / the kids are not supposed to be back yet. Evidently S7 didn't want to go to her Mom's for dinner and wanted to stay with me. She asked me if it was okay by herself, he was not in the room. I said sure. I did go ahead and ask if she has filed yet, she denies it. I also asked if she still had her wedding rings, b/c when I have been putting stuff away, I peeked into her open jewelry box and didn't see them where they normally are. She said they're still there. I then proceeded to ask her to let me know when she files, as I don't want it happen at work / want to be a little prepared. She said she would. So we'll see about that. Lastly, she then tells me that we may have to do 7 days on / 7 days off, instead of this 4/ 3 split thingy were doing right now. I wonder what changed in the past few hours since she's been gone with the kids.
