OK well here is an other day that I'm not really in good space. I keep looking at the good things I have to try to get out of this funk. I am sure I'm not the only one that has these days.
The thing I am thinking about is this. I know that things will stay the same until some one makes a move or does something. I was told by my DB Coach that I need to send a text (it will be a long text) to W. This text has to do with a lot but in a few words it will say this " I know you have a lot that you want to say.I was thinking about the text you sent me the other day saying you are so angry about your family and them choosing to have contact with me. I will say that when I'm around them I do not talk about you or me AT ALL!! Even if they try to bring it up I do not feed into it. It hurts me to hear you say it is causing you to resent them. Please know that I did not and will not EVER disrespect you at all!!! I just get the feeling that you have a lot to say based on the lack of acknowledgement of any gifts give and any nice things said to you. If you would like to meet to talk about this and other things I am willing to sit and listen to what you have to say. I'. ready to listen with no holding back from you.."
So I have to sit here and think this out and try to send this text but Honestly I have some fear in doing this. Why I am not sure but One thing is i am afraid she is going to begin to Yell and I dont even want to deal with things that way.
