That just it Sandi, I don't know for sure. I guess I would have closure. I guess that would give me no other choice than to move on, basically forcing my hand.
I mean I get the fact that this could take a long time. I am even willing to stay in it for the long haul, if I have a fighting chance. But, I also realize that it could be a never ending journey to nowhere. I just don't know if I can "actually" start to heal without there being a defined end to it, whether good or bad. I mean what are the odds that we are all just spinning our wheels, almost in denial of the situation? How often does a WAS ever come back? Is it like 1 in 10.....1 in a 100....1 in a million? I don't know. I have no idea if mine will ever turn around. Is it good for me to keep "acting as if" it will?
In regards to the WAS being angry and unhappy after they leave, we all feel that, but what about the fact that maybe they are just angry and unhappy with US? Who knows, maybe they are in a happier place with the rest of their lives, or maybe they are in just a "slightly" happier place. I mean there has to be a reason they choose to stay on their path.
Please don't turn me out in the cold. This is just the place I am in today. I WILL get my strength and determination back!For all practical purposes, I am still doing better today DBing than I ever have. I just need to have some support. That is why I am reaching out to all of you. You are all amazing people that give me so much hope. I wouldn't have lasted without you.
