Almost Over...

[Dewayne]

Yeah, I've calmed down a bit. The only thing that was getting me is IF IT IS my child, and she does get the divorce (i don't fight it) and she aborts it... Sure, the statistics show that Antidepressants can cause an unhealthy baby, but if IT'S MINE... I don't want to abort it!!

I was thinking while on a drive, If legal aid says we need to stall the divorce pending a blood test I may go with that. Other than that, i can't think of a single thing that she could be hiding so much taht she wouldn't want me to go to the court date.

She's saying that she doesn't want me to delay and cause problems with the divorce, but if it's MY RIGHT to be there, by golly I want to be there! That makes me feel like I'm about to get railroaded and screwed. Why do this if there's not a good reason?

I knew it ws getting close and I hadn't heard anything about a date, so that's why I asked. I was doing fine until she did this. I didn't make her mad and I think I handled it well (comparatively)

Intuitive: Ok, why is it that my gut's wrenching up NOW? Is it because I'm feeling "better" and the emotions aren't as terrible?
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Thanks