I talked with my DB coach yesterday and she agreed that W seems to be working on herself, with the journaling and reading/listening to spiritual or inspirational materials. She has been doing both pretty much since Mom passed. Coach also agreed that I'm on course and need to take care of myself and stay busy.
I expressed my frustration at how things don't seem to getting any better between us, no matter what I do or don't do. I asked what I can look for as a sign of improvement. She said to look for small positive things W does that she doesn't have to do. Good idea actually, as I see this almost everyday.
My wife came home late last night from her office x-mas party. She was happy and a bit lit up, and told me much about her time out. She even demonstrated how she attempted to give away the miniature Chicago Bears nerf football and duct tape she won in the grab bag, by stuffing the ball in her mouth and holding up the tape! I was a little shocked and failed to react quickly enough with a witty comment, but like that we can still sometimes connect.
I passed my drawing course final last night. Only missed one question out of 38. I haven't spent much time actually drawing though. Might not be my thing right now.
I have 3 guys coming over tonight to practice martial arts. One, new to our group, is a black belt in Hapkido, which teaches some circular, non-resisting moves which uses your opponents strength against them. Should be fun.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
