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[theUF]

I haven't been at this for much longer than you, but remember this is a rollercoaster. Nothing she says to anyone can be taken as the complete truth.

You can't let her actions affect you(this much). It will drive you mad.

My eX has gone from
- commenting my positive change
to
- saying she was never happy, that we never got a long and that she thought the very essens of my person was just extremely annoying and always have been. That she had no interest in talking to me and hoped I wouldn't call. This was said out of the blue, just being downright mean.
to
- being very distant and only down to business
and the last weeks now, she has been calling/texting and being nothing but nice and fun to be around. (Now I'm just bracing myself for the continuing rollercoaster I'm sure will follow)

I have done my best to be balanced and not reactive towards her, and have done -fairly- good(I think), yet she has been all over the place.
I've been telling myself the same thing I tell you. Try and brush it off, don't go along on the rollercoaster.
If I would take it all seriously I would be crushed.
Being discouraged is part of this. Be strong, focus on yourself, continue DB'ing for YOU.