I haven't been able to go back and read my earliest posts here, or the notebook I filled before I got here, which is even worse.

FloydMan. Your post here sounded like you believe I have given up. What about my story sounds like I have given up? If I had not "given up," what would that look like to you? I'm curious.

I have held onto my marriage until my fingernails bled, and I have done only things that would give it the space and time to grow back - detachment, and all the 37 rules, which remember are counterintuitive. I have done them religiously for 19 months. I have no control over my H. So, I would like to know...what is giving up? What is *not* giving up?

Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.