Oh I'm certain feelings will continue to intensify. I keep asking / telling myself, do what is right for me. It helps a little. Along with also reminding myself I tried.
I'm pretty sure she is lying too. SIL continues to okay Scramble with me, "nudged" me to make a move. More importantly sat down beside me on the couch while I was playing the Wii with S7. SIL was nice, talkative. Didn't seem too fearful it disgusted with me.
Living situation clearly remains stressful. I'm still undecided on what I want to do.
To add to the whatever situation, W called earlier to let me the day out with the kids was cancelled b/c the place isn't open that long today. They'll do it tomorrow. So she asks what kind if pizza I'd like as they are bringing some up. Also, she and the SIL are meeting up with an aunt later tonight, and w stressed it won't be too long and that she is not drinking. Why do I care? So w did offer me a chance to go out via getting a babysitter for a few hours. So I'm going to meet up with a friend for his bday for a few hours later on. Other than that, I don't know. I'm trying not to get hooked back in. I'm trying to find a eat to make / create my own happiness.
