Thanks everyone, I try to vent here instead of on my family. I am still working on not reacting to situations, instead I need to digest, put it into perspective, stop mind reading and proceed with a calm attitude.
Bug, your right about picking my battles. I'm trying to figure out my frustration and why I am having it. Is it because I am selfish and wanted to be the fun one?? Am I upset because she came into the(my) home she left and got onto the(my) computer she left, without my permission (I would not go to her home and help myself)?? I don't think it's the dinner or when it was served, just the fact that she keeps doing things like this without checking with me, this was my night with my daughter not hers (Is that selfish??) I'll work on this and see where it leads me(of course your perspective is always welcome). I won't say anything to her yet(if at all), this is going into my journal and I'll talk it over with my IC. It may be my boundary issue and not hers lol.
The other day at Sunday School I could feel myself getting very anxious because we were getting out late from class. Class is suppose to be over at 10:15 and service starts at 10:30. Well, I could feel my self getting anxious because we were not getting out on "TIME", we did not get out until 10:30. Why was I so anxious?!?! It's not like i'm going to get a ticket for late service arrival lol. I can be a real jerk about being late, I'd rather be an hour early than just on time. Growing up my dad was the same way, not sure if their is a connection. He could really be pushy when running late. Could this be part of my controlling side, more stuff to think about. Man I have a lot of "STUFF" to think about hehe.
On the bright side I dominated in Trivial Pursuit lol.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
