Have been working 7 days a week. The good part of this is that it keeps me too busy to get into too much trouble.
I have no idea what's happening marriage wise. Its very strange. Surface still seems "ok". No ML, but otherwise the same.
I have been deliberately stopping myself from thinking about the sitch. Every time my thoughts turn that way I visualize a big red STOP sign and repeat what has become my mantra "Concentrate on the task at hand." It seems, for now, to be working. No tears since Christmas day. Yay me.
I am looking forward to us getting our taxes filed because after that I can proceed with school funding attempts. The thinking here is that I want to be able to support myself and even 50 hours a week at fast food land isn't going to do that. I figure if he won't leave, after me asking him to twice, that I will have to. It will prob work out to be his "2 year time" frame any way, but at least I will be ready, or at least "more ready", to take care of myself.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
