SS, hang in there, just breath!!! It's tough watching our lives unfold like this, but it WILL get better. You will learn and grow from this. You will know to watch for the warning signs in your next relationship. You will know so much more and be in a better spot for you. Your h will struggle constantly and eventually he may or may not figure out he is his own problem. You SS should be doing the hard work of fixing you right now.

What are you going to do now?? Have you set goals yet?? I have setup a project board with my 1, 3, 5 and 10 year goals. I made up 80 goals and dreams put them on another project board and picked about 8 that were the most important. I placed them on my main board with sticky notes. with specific notes on what I am doing this week to accomplish them. I open up this board daily to keep me motivated and it is really empowering to constantly see what dream I have and that I am actually doing something to achieve them. When I get anxious about my situation I can go and look at my boards and focus on my dreams and visualize me driving a 1968 Camaro or hiking the Appalachian Trail. Keep your dreams alive work on you and give yourself a break SS.

(((SS))) Christian Love from Tennessee

You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.