Flyingsolo - Thank you for your post, I see it's your first one, I am so glad you shared your story. Sorry to hear about your sitch, though you seem to have a good sense of where your at.

I have gotten past the sitting around missing ''us'' phase realizing that maybe there has been a little of who H is today always there.

I still have to remind myself to stay detached or catch myself doing something ''normal'' like approaching the door as he leaves for my hug and kiss. After 24yrs it's all I know as well and change, though necessary, is not always easy.

Detaching is becoming less of a conscience act and more of a way of life here, it's a lonely thing to have to practice and makes me think of my future without H altogether. I do believe that's were we're headed though neither one of us is pushing for D.

I wish you the best and hope that you make a thread for us all to read and keep up with you. It's not over until it's over....your still in the game.

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!