Is it the downer of the Holidays or is everyone it seems giving up? Do I give up on my M? This board is helpful in so many ways yet confusing at the same time. I sometimes see my W's side though some folks and see mine. Some in the middle. Lately it seems so many are giving up. I get encouraged and discouraged at the same time.

M17 yrs.
me49
xW47
d15
d11

BD1-Jul/11(Affair found out)
Therapy 9 months (tried 2)
BD2- May/12(sep)
Court Jul/13 - I got 50/50
Sold home - Aug/13
Court #2 - Dec/13
Court#3 - Apr/14 ... She lost again
We settled.