finding my way

[littleGTO]

Emailed H today (have been emailing once a week, just to let him know I am thinking about him or just to say hi. Trying to keep emails light & non-emotional.)

H acknowledges emails when I see him after work at home,but rarely responds otherwise. I NEVER used to email him at work, so this is a 180 for me to give him the time of day while I'm at work. It really hasn't seemed to make any impact at all.

When he said he got my email he also said he really didn't know what to respond. I said, "That's okay, I just wanted you to know that I was thinking about you." He said, "I'm sure you do." I said jokingly, "That's being a little full of yourself!" No response from him. I guess he wasn't in the mood for a joke.

He was at his wits end when I came home from work as kids had been arguing/fighting for a couple of hours. Could tell H was ready to "get the hockey-puck outta here!"

MY GAL- invited a GF over to my house to have a little cocktail tonight--very impromptu! Would never have done this before! (Kids will just watch a movie until bedtime."

Tomorrow's GAL- bball games for all kids! Then maybe I'll do a little shopping returns & sit at a book store cafe & read for a little while...if H decides to hang out at the house after games. We'll see. (Trying to not be around H as much, so I can detach better. Don't know if this is the right thing to do, but feel that since OW is his focus that I need to not focus my attention on H).