Trust me, it is not easier when H is being awful. Maybe it's easier to feel you want to walk away, but In my case, I have internalized all the awful. Not fun. At least there's some hope in your sitch. Your H and you are friends. My H is nothing close to a friend.
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page