I have already asked if he would go to marriage councelling, but he doesn't think he needs it..."they don't know me and my life". I had started with DB back in Sept and was doing well, until my huge mistake and it was always in my face. I am starting up with it again. Started today actually...going dark...funny thing though when he said " I love you " tonight, I automatically replied it back...think I will not say it for a while. It is tough, a brutal thing to go through for anyone...and I truly do sympathize with you littleGTO and anyone else who has gone through this. |But now that his parents, sister and kids know..( my family does not yet..not sure I want that out there, knowing what they would think and feel. I do think we can recover if he totally gives her up, but my family wouldn't). And not to toot my own horn, but they all fully agree with me on what he has been doing and his behavior. Think that is tough for him as well, but he has to lay in his mistakes. For some reason his parents and our kids seem to have put me on this high pedastal, which is hard to swallow at times, as I know I have my faults and quarks. But it is what it is. So have been writing notes, reading books, and he knows how I feel about continuing contact. I never called him at all today, he called twice, and if he does tomorrow then if he does say those three magic words, will do my best not to say it back, but rather say "thank you". Our conversations consisted of generic day to day things today...and am resolving to continue that. He knows I am ready to give up...maybe this will prove it to him...going dark...big time. Seems like I have been doing things wrong or backwards, now..he needs to know I am serious. Her or Me! I have the backing of his family and our children. ( and here I was so worried about protecting the kids and thier dad about all of this...and to find out I have the complete support...helps immensely.)
