I would like to go on "dates" with H. That means we plan something ahead and get dressed up and take our time and talk (emotional intimacy).
On Tues (which is our usual dinner night) I brought it up that I would like for us to do something more than fast food. There was only silence on his end. A few hours later he proposed we get Jack n the Box and take it to the movies! WHOOOooo HOOooo!
Serioulsy, I hated fast food before we were on a very limited budget but NOW! oh now I enjoy it because even that doesn't come very often. AND A MOVIE!! We haven't been to the movies together in over a year n a half! So I was ELATED!
This small step is a giant one in our M. And because of that, I was feeling impatient with our progress. However, I do feel much calmer about it. He sent me a text the day after, I had a really nice time, a really really nice time!
You know why? Cuz my 180s come naturally. I enjoyed the movie. It wasn't my choice, but I tried to find the positive in it and just had a good time. Before I would've complained about the movie and how we never see something I like.
I'm ok with that now. If I want to go see something, I'll go with a friend or by myself! it doesn't have to be with him.
I feel relief.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
