Last night with my family.. I did it.. I survived 24 days.
Since the BD, I have spent almost 10 wks at home. I probably didn't average 10 weeks in the 10 yrs previous to that. Each time has been bitter sweet. There is always pain that comes with the journey, but what I learn is always amazing.
After 21 yrs, I can finally say that I can go home and enjoy my father's company. I won't go as far as to say that I have forgiven him for all he has done, but my heart has shifted. We had a little bit of a fight.. but I took the first step to open up to communication and he opened up towards me. I've always waited for HIM to take the first step.... but in the end.. it didn't matter WHO took the first step.. only that we both took one.
We will see how this progresses. My heart is still very guarded.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
