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[mamabird]

I think, Crazyville, that you are really frustrated by your circumstances and that you feel like there are no good options. You are not happy, that's clear. But you DO feel like you don't want to fail your son by leaving. So, you've decided you need to accept the circumstances, as painful and as unhappy as they are.

You sound like a strong woman Crazyville. Maybe even headstrong. I can relate to that. But to me, it sounds like, in a deep down way, you feel like you don't deserve to be happy.

It would be tragic for S12 to suffer through a divorce, but many adult children of D say that they were relieved when their parents D. I know you say it's not like that but I believe children can tell when things aren't right.

I'm in no way trying to influence you - just trying to get you to think about what's going on inside.

Anyway, just my two cents. I'm a big believer in "if mama's not happy ain't nobody happy." You do deserve happiness CV.