D process started, emotions not finished II--Tori

[Spartan]

Just getting caught up on your sitch over the last several days, I was dealing with my own drama and haven't been around here much. I'm really sorry to hear what happened.

Please try not to feel used. You put a lot of effort into DB, and have made yourself a better person. You should be proud of yourself. You are the prize, and I'm proud of you!

I know it's from a few days ago but wanted to reiterate that to you.

Even now, after my H has said what he said, I know that deep inside I hope he changes his mind at the last minute. So even that final nail on the coffin doesn't let me lose all hope. I know that I still don't believe/accept what's happening.

I SO understand what you mean here because I feel the exact same way. Right now I think I'm squarely in the anger phase but I still hold hope deep down that something will flip the switch and my old W will come back. Sadly I haven't seen that version of her in over 10 years so not sure why I can't let go

I made another mistake: told my mom what happened. She's now beyond angry and swore she will never talk to my H again. When he came over on Xmas Eve and was behaving so loving toward me, she also got her hopes up, and this was a big blow for her too. She was in tears. I felt so bad. Made me realize that although I don't want anyone to hurt me, I cannot accept anyone hurting my mom...I need to stop telling her these things.

Wow that sounds familiar. I did same thing with my mom and it really ticked me off when she started crying and how hurt she felt. She asked me on Christmas Eve if things were improving and I told her where we were and that we were at least talking and hanging out again. She was so upset when I told her about how W treated kids she went as far as to say W is dead to her (my mom is not like that at all). I made decision to stop telling anyone not on these boards what's going on.

I think the book club and trip will be good to get your mind right again. No matter what, don't forget that you are worthy of being loved and their are guys out there that will treat you how you should be and need to be treated. Any guy will be lucky to have you.