thanks for the support from everyone and your 100% correct the farther away i get the calmer things are. i dont think i could ever R with her unless she shows true remorse and she has always been kinda immature. i may never get i,m sorry so i may never let her back in but as they say never say never! from the things ive read and people ive talked to almost guarateed at some point she,ll try to return but who knows when and where my head will be at that time.