its been a couple of weeks of pitch black and i,m feeling better. my gal has been riding in the desert with our son. i know her head is messed up when she has only seen the gandaughter once since she was born. sad that our son doesnt want anything to do with his mom.i guess ive decided if someone (female) comes along that i enjoy spending time with then there will be no looking back. ive been through way to much from her and i will not rugsweep! i still love her but i found my balls again and if someone doesnt value the relationship they have with you then dont waste your time.