Hey Nero - my last post ending doesn't pertain to you. I am just a little upset that nobody writes on my thread and I read others who go back and forth with some really great inspiration.
Yea, I read it, though it's addressed to them who posted, because it is for the benefit of all. I get that, but sometimes I want/need a personal comment, you know, not a one size fits all!
I am done, your right, but am I right? Every ounce of my being want to be a million miles away from my H, is that a good thing?
Isn't human life suppose to be more than fun and comfort. It's suppost to be about humanity and love and endurance, but he won't let me. SO I say F** him!
What else should I do? It only doesn't hurt when I say this! I don't want to hurt any more so I flip the bird, and walk away for my h and any hope!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
i feel the same way today. watching my mother for the last three days- feeble as a baby - can't walk much less stand up- 88, sick as a dog - old old old-
i don't want to spend the rest of my days with my h , like this(as you say - miserable) i'll get back-
can't really write- roaming prying eyes- ou're rite= there's more to life than this crappola-
guess if they can't be better - be more tous - we've got to take the bull by the horns - it's hard tho....
Nero- I am very sorry to hear about your mom, I pray things go well! I have been a bit bottled up here so I haven't written much. I just had to give you good wishes for your momma!
((())) sending a big hug for both of you!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
I think now that she's re-hydrated and hopefully will get over the darn "cold" soon (?) and can actually eat and enjoy it- should blob up and be okay (well, back to hernorm).
it's sad that the minute you're "old" everyone is sitting around judging you and thinking you're crazy and not worth the effort (doctors & etc) becasue you're "old" and "crazy" - it's so dismisive and belittling. people don't even see it- my sisters, they don't see her for weeks at a time- see her- are mortified and just think - oh well, she's "old" and "crazy".
cripes- if life were only so cut and dry. i feel protective even when i'm mad at her constantly for her complaining, etc.
it's a sad and bad set of circumstances- being old & invisible and useless. oh well- i can't fix it- i can understand it.
i do my best. thanks fo the good wishes and hug-= we'll take it'
are you okay and doing okay? are you going to survive the 12 days?
Hi - hope your better when you get this in the morning. I have to go to bed but will return to reply to your post, here and on my thread. Stay focused, I'll be back!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
I'm sorry to read that your mother is under the weather. Hopefully the medication and "rest" will help her and she'll be home soon.
BTW, your mother at 88 isn't old. She's still got some living to do. It sounds like she might be a little bit depressed w/her current situation. Does she have any particular interests, i.e., reading, or doing puzzles, gardening, etc.?
It's difficult for the seniors in our society because everyone thinks that once you hit a certain age, you should sit in a corner and just stay there. It's not the case because there are many would live to be in their mid 90s, as well as older and still have productive lives, but it's done in their time, their way.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
you are sure right- i do think this woman has something to offer in life- and a long(ish) way to go. i wish i could (quickly and easily) find a way for her to contribute. she could easily help someone from another country learn to read english- our library & school doesn't have such a program- but wouldn't it be a good idea? corral the old people around who still have patience and something to contributre.
how the heck to get it going- is anyone's idea. anyway- i agree.
she is a bit depressed - all her friends are dead- on the other hand- she's glad to be alive. she needs to be of use to someone- that's really what she wants/needs.
I GET bummed by the feeling that it's my total responsibility in life to save her- from boredom, grim reaper, whatever.
she's (additionally) a very scrappy, complainie character. i am really over it with her. just proximity- i need to get a handle on it- at this moment i want to walk out of her life, h live, my life, etc. i'm just havnig a 'I AM DONE" MOMment in life.
i'm praying for wisdom- patience, the ability to get thru this in a day or two and continue on with my normal amount of fortitude.
just a big big "down & ready to end this madness" spell- send me a wish for grace (or something) in the face of my current lousy attitude. if i ever get rid of this cold- maybe it'll go away too???
ooooor - maybe i really am 'DONE" AND something is about to happen to shove me some other way in life- which to hope for- which to avoid?????
btw - she's home, a visiting nurse is going to stop by a few times so that will be a little "social" event for her- and maybe she'll eat a bit and drink a bit and get stronger-
still got that stupid ole optimism thing in there (somewhere). woo hoo thank you for your good wishes. xxo
glad to hear your little "voice". I'm hanging in there and hope you are as well. . this darn cold is killing me. going to sit & read a bit. or hot bath. spent last few hours at mom's (visiting nurse- sister (oiy!!!) - thank goodness her husband wasn't around.
i've had it with the lot- keeping a wrap on that - trying to just stay away for awhile.
will be back later- freezing & need something hot to d4ink or something.
i'm a lousy patient- too impatient to be good at being sick & gracious. i need to feel great - and feel it now.
nero, In my area we have something called senior citizen's day care. A van/bus comes by and picks the person up and takes them to a local meeing area where they have bingo, reading, knitting, etc. I know several who do this and they enjoy getting out and it provides a little bit of independence for them. They even have lunch served w/snacks.
You might want to check out the local "elder care" organization to see what they offer. Your mother needs to be interacting w/other people and not just people her age. She needs to feel needed and wanted, i.e., putting in her "value added" time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
