When tapestries of life get tangled in the loom.

[Big Bruce]

Bonsoir everybody,
First of all, thank you for such great feedback.
No matter how thing turn out in the end, I know I've grown up already. Maybe I need more time and introspection, but in 6 months, I have changed my take on many, many things in a deep way.

This week, I wrote one email of one line. It's a 180 for me. She must be thinking it's because I'm on holidays here. But when I'll be back next week, it'll be the same : I won't write everyday, I've lost the grip, the need to try to control and say things.

I don't have the power to change the heart of people, and in a normal situation one can try to convince, but here, it always backfires as manipulative. Therefore I need to back off.

As for her point of view, I get it better now that she had to detail in a written document. I understand her reasons and see where she comes from. Nonetheless, that document is full of exagerations, half distorted truths and misleading stuff, even about my parents and my childhood. It hurts to see how far she is ready to go.

Even if she was to come back today, if that's what she's capable of, I'm not even sure I want to be friends with someone who has the nerve to do such a thing.

Mind you, in my document, I will say she was a good mother. That things weren't perfect, but she was not a horrible wife. And that I want to keep that link with my son.

If there is truth in her version, I don't want and I can't defend myself or deny the facts.
--> I don't know if the judge will swallow her version of things because I'm not defending myself

Anyway, it's a new me, and only God can do something now.
Bye,
B.