Want / need to add this piece as still bothers me some. [bold]Yup, it's a setback, but not necessarily the straw that breaks the back. [/bold] Had said during the recent "done" convo that she was waiting for something to push her one way or ther other. This pushed her the other way towards "done" again. Just airing the little extra piece of why it is so bothersome.
Tori, I also guess that I'm not as "kindhearted" as I preach. I need to be more responsible in managing my emotions (especially not taking so much pain in and releasing it until there is no more room). Too nice syndrome turning into the Hulk.
Bug, To answer how I was feeling. I can't say for sure as I was intoxicated. I'm not proud to say this either. My best guess is that right at midnight W gave me a short / terse kiss. Maybe in my non logical thinking mind I took that as insecurity , jealousy / lack of appreciation for all that I have done and or put up with. Other than that I really don't know. I was very irresponsible that night and am paying for it. Not so sure what I could have done differently other than simply not have drank that much. Additionally, I clearly need to a healthy preventive release to all this. I'm really seeing why W has been afraid.
Spartan, Reading what I just wrote in regards to Bug's question. Not drinking heavily, if not at all, is my best bet.
