Andrew,this The best thing that may come out of this outburst, is the realization that I have some this before, and not just to her. I think a big part is my internalizatiob of thoughts / resentment towards unacknowledged actions by me; and then eventually alcohol helps it boil and then Boom! Out it comes. is a great insight.

Learning to sit with uncomfortable emotions is so difficult but so necessary. And in situations where we might otherwise have a handle on things, alcohol lessens our inhibitions and control and out it comes.

How can you work with this realization? Do you remember what you were feeling that night that lit the fuse? What could you have done differently?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss