Just a little more journaling and thoughts. Found some photos from my early days w H. Made me remember how close we were, how much fun we had together. We haven't been best friends like that in a long, long time. Kind of sad and I don't know if we can ever get that back.
Wow, I've done the exact same thing since BD. It's brought tears to my eyes. I've asked myself the same questions that Breakdown asked and identified some of the answers. However, I also found it hard to answer some of them. I feel like we've slipped so far that I can't remember what it was like sometimes. I know that I was under a lot less stress and H and I did everything together. But like you, I know that it will take more than me to get back to that stage, if we ever could.
Even if you move forward in your M, you may never get back to where you were early in the M. A lot has transpired over the years. I think that's why they talk about entering a new M.
Keep working on you.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together
