Tori, I know it’s hard to see now, but good things are and WILL continue to happen in your life.
Definitely go to see your in-laws. You may be surprised to find how glad you will be that you did afterwards. You said yourself that you love them, and I’m sure there is still love there for you!
Please try not to feel used. You put a lot of effort into DB, and have made yourself a better person. You should be proud of yourself. You are the prize, and I'm proud of you!
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl