Thank you for the input on the FY. I am just really on the fence with all this NC. I do not know if she will miss me or just be happy that i am not contacting her. She is so hard to read. Even her mother said the same thing she does not know how she will react to anything anymore.. The mother is angry at her as well.
I will be talking to my DB Coach tomorrow. But i like the idea of just keeping contact but not pursuing her. But i think most of my contact has been that way. Not all but most. I feel bad that i did not say happy new year but I was waiting to see if she would tell me first.
As far as letting W know the D and BF are stopping by I dont know if that is good for one reason. The D keeps saying what goes on with W and me is your business. I just get the feeling that it may cause D more pain then happiness.
Like i said I am just at a loss with all this. Just sometimes i feel like why why am i doing all this is it worth it. Will she ever come around. I just think most her friends are feeding her alot of what to do but yet those same friends still talk to me. I just dont talk about W with them. One thing I can say is I think W is jealous about how well i am doing. not struggling and have a very nice home as all her friends tell me. Some want me to come to there house to decorate. Also W see all this and i have to send her late notice for the car that is in my name. so im sure she is very angry at everything. and yes it is all my fault
