The green green grass of home. (Part 2 )

[Crazyville]

(((SS))) I'm so sorry, SS. I don't know what to say except that I'm sorry these things are happening around you and that I'll pray for your sitch to get better.

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks CV. It almost feels surreal. I mean seriously, what are the chances of that? I actually suspected fowl play for a bit there. But there were no signs of it.
Two dogs, sisters, passing away on the same day? In two different ways. My poor puppies.
S8 is taking it pretty hard. He was always out the back playing with them. Today he went out back came back in to his room and layed on his bed, crying quietly.

H is angry at me again and I'm over it. He wanted me to look for some things for him and I couldn't find one. He gets so angry so easily. I really don't miss his temper tantrums. It's strange because I had no problem putting up with them while we were together but now, I ask myself why I ever put up with that.
His worse than a toddler when he does not get his own way.

[Soul.Searching]

I have a question about depression. Does it manifest in physical symptoms?
Eg aching body, exhaustion etc?

[Crazyville]

Yes, it does. And it will eventually make you physically ill, much like stress. In fact, yours could be stress as much as depression. They're kind of a chicken/egg thing. Stress causes depression and vice versa.

[Soul.Searching]

Hmmm, someone mentioned to me it could be depression. I didn't know it had physical symptoms like aches. It's hard not to be stressed when things keep happening. I mean two dogs in one day, in two different ways. It's hard not to feel like something is against me. There's just been so much stuff.
The last five months has been so hard. It almost feels surreal. I know things happen and people go through series of bad events but its just so much.

[tori2012]

SS, I'm very sorry to hear you're going through all of this. That was it, though. Believe the bad stuff is OVER. Believe it. Feel it. It's very important you get some rest. I know things seem like they're spiraling down, but they are not. They are going to get better--starting now.

We're here for you.

[littleGTO]

SS,
So sorry you are dealing w all of these terrible things all at once. Sometimes life just isn't fair!

Well, 2012 is almost over & I hope & pray for everyone here that 2013 is better! Time to move forward. Take care of yourself, SS. YOu are worth it!

[Crazyville]

SS, how is your new year going? Better, I hope. I've been thinking about you.

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks guys. I spent New Years camping. It was a last minute holiday. We went for 5 nights with a bunch of family. It was good, refreshing! The first few days were good but the last few were awesome! It took me a while to unwind and let go of stuff. The days were hot and the nights were cold! The days were spent swimming in the river and fishing. The nights were just gathering around and going spotting. ( looking for animals with torches.)

It was so relaxing and freeing! The kids had a ball!! The best part was,... It was my first camping trip as a single mother. I set up all my own stuff and it felt great! I had people offer to help but I wanted to do it.
I can do it! I don't need a man!

Packing to go home sucked because it was soooo hot but we broke it up with a couple of trips down the river.

I noticed all my aches and pains slowly dissapeared. I got less sleep than normal and was tired by night time but it was the normal tired not physical exhaustion!!

I got back and friends had moved and cleaned my yards! It was such a shock. I don't know how to thank them! That took a big chunk of my plate. I'd let it get so bad these last few months while trying to rid the house of all H's odds and ends.

My Uncle is still the same, no change.

So The kids called H when we got back, apparently he has a brand new four wheel drive. ( something I have always wanted.) oh and suprise, suprise, he is taking the kids camping in a few weeks with OW and her children! He is an arse!
Anything I do with the kids, he has to try to do better. Well I'm sorry but introducing the kids to OW so soon, means anything he does he is failing them!

I felt a bit sad after talking to H. It would be so much simplier if I didn't have to talk to him.

I did miss him at times while camping but overall it was awesome just doing what I wanted, when I wanted without H bugging me or asking me to go to town everyday. I want to live in the bush, by the river!

Life is so simple without technology! I had a awesome time. I wish we could have stayed longer!!!

[Crazyville]

I'm so glad you had a great time away! It bites to have to come back and deal with your H. Try not to focus on it, though. Bigger is not always better, and you just never know what memories kids take away from an occasion.