Hello, and thank you for allowing me to become a member of this forum. I have been married to my current wife for a little over 3 years now, and we have been together for a total of 7. The first year of our marriage was great, and we socialized and made time for each other often. The last two years have been ok in my opinion, but apparently alot tougher for her. She has a full time job, and goes to school online as well. She is currently working on her Bachelors degree. This last month, things have really gone badly and on the 26th of Decemeber, I pushed her too hard/too far and she basically said that she was done trying anymore. I haven't had any physical contact with her since then, and this last 5 days has been utter hell for me. I spent the first 2 days alone, crying and pacing back and forth trying to clear my head. I spent hours online looking for resources to try and save my marriage and to better myself in the process. I stumbled across this site, and have read it pretty much nonstop since then. Just yesterday I went to Barnes and Nobles and purchased Divorce Busting. I have made a commitment to myself to try and GAL, to not bug her or contact her in any way unless she initiates. I have made a commitment to get in shape, and just this morning I had an appointment to address some anxiety/depression issues that I have been dealing with but not taking action against. I am scared that I will lose her, but I am trying to stay positive and patient. I want her to have her space, and maybe by focusing on myself she can see that I really do want to change for the better to save our marriage. It was really painful to spend New Years alone in our house while thinking about her possibly having a great time with friends, but at this point I will do whatever it takes to save our relationship. I know that I have not shown her near as much affection these last two years, nor spent as much time focusing on the little things that matter in a marriage. I just hope that my "awakening" hasn't happened to late. Any advice or questions that could help are greatly appreciated. Thank you for your time.
