Just to give an update. Status is still the same with my situation. Probably will recieving the D papers soon.
The only thing that has changed is, i decided to move to another country for a career change. Something i always wanted to do and try. My W took it well but it has changed our child custody scenerio, but my W and I are working on this together to insure our kids can spend time with both parents.
Going dark has been hard..she basically still is in the house everyday. I haven't given up on DB, GAL and 180. Still doing it today. Right now, I can talk to my W like a normal friend without wondering "What if". The weird thing is, she continues to treat me nicer than the beginning 2 months of D-Day. I try not to pay attention, as I just consider her being nice to be a reflection of our 15 years.
Of course a little of me still hopes it all works out (she knows this) but at the end, I will be okay no matter what happens.
With me out of the picture in a few months(when i move), I can finally get along with my new life and my W can find her happiness with OM.
Thanks again to everybody who has given me their advice and stories.
