Still working on me

[sweetbabyred]

On Saturday morning I sent H a short email, basically saying that I was ready to move on. Our mutual friend had her baby and I wanted the opportunity to have a family also.

I haven't received a response and didn't expect to get one. I just asked that he fill out and file the papers as soon as possible. In the next few days it will be the 7th anniversary of when we first started dating and on the 22nd it will be our 5th wedding anniversary.

I still do not want a D, but I want a H who wants to work on things with me and make a life together. I don't have that now and seem to need a D in order to try to find a new R. H has moved on with his OW and knows that I won't date until I'm legally single. I'm not ready to date right now, but I've waited a year and a half for H to decide what he wants and it doesn't seem to be our marriage.

Monday was my last day of work with my current project. It was kind of hard to say goodbye to everyone since I'd been there for almost three months.

On the bright side, I spent New Year's eve with some friends, first at a comedy club, then an Irish bar, and then a dash to downtown to celebrate the ball drop and fireworks.

For the last few years, I always celebrated at home, so this was a huge 180 for me. Although I missed not having someone to kiss at midnight, it was fun.

In fact, the last time I'd gone out for New Years ended up being the year I finally began speaking to H, after meeting him at a work event about a month before. Maybe I'll be as lucky this year.