LBS gearing up for the long haul

[Dm45]

Update:
Saw C on Saturday, alone, W will see tomorrow, then together in near future. My discussion was a recap of Christmas, how good I thought it was, and C agreed. I asked how to "get ready" for C together. Didn't get immediate answer, though C wants me to think through my hurts and questions, write down. I haven't done it, because I have been able to stay positive and sane 80% and don't want to go that way. I know I need to...

New Years Eve: W and I usually host. Her personality is great for it. This year, well, I made plans for us alone, was eager for it, she was eager, but she came down w/virus/flu that's been going around at work. I am ashamed sad to say I doubted she was sick at first, but she was. I crossed out ashamed...I treated her "as if" she were sick and completely honest, offered to make soup, get meds, I'm actually pleased about that. She's truly sick. It's going to be some time before I take everything she says at face value, especially if its not face to face.

So, S and I spent NYE party hopping in the neighborhood. (they're all family) and I actually had a great time, total GAL. I was the life of party at B's playing balderdash, my answers mostly designed to get most laughs rather than win.

25, I took your advice to another thread and got Judy Carter comedy book....who knows?

So ?'s:
IMO W's communication needs to be more direct, (and I need to learn to pick up on her subtleties better) and I don't think I am going to hear the words, "DM, I am now committed to R. You have validated me, now let me validate you." in the near future. Excuse my absurd way of putting it, but catch my meaning.

She has said she's sorry, but in such a general way that it's almost meaningless.

What I'm getting at, is there is a lot of "catching up" to do on hearing my hurts, and I don't think that starts at least until she is back home? I'm not looking to punish, or revenge, I just want to be heard.

I don't want to start that too soon, and C telling me to list scares me a little bit. I get C's point that getting everything in open early is needed, rather than letting things fester into resentment for later...