Ruby, it's good you and your H are exchanging all those emails about your R. I didn't understand this statement: "Talked about how all his sex needs to be relationships or before, me one night stands. He said he can't bear an FWBS relationship because he couldn't think of the person he was with to be with someone else."
Do you think he really wants you to find someone? Maybe not, at least deep inside. I guess no one knows what he's thinking.
I think he does, because then at least he will think that I have moved on or the playing field will be equal. I really don't know if he would entertain a relationship with me unless I had also explored what was out there, but I am not sure. It is what it is feeling like to me.
That relationship comment is that he cannot be with someone on a casual basis. He had to separate from me in order to be with someone else. I guess in his head separation is fine for starting a new relationship, for me "no" but that is where I am now and who is to say it won't be different down the line...I think though for me, I would have to be divorced fully. This is why I am sure he feels so awful about making out with me, although I initiated it and he wouldn't let it go further than a heavy session....
We will cross that bridge or burn it when we get there thoug.
