So talked a lot about how we felt in marriage, a little more about sex etc. said the two men on my short list were not available at this point in time, one of them being matthew McConnaughy and was wasn't taking my calls. Lol. Also, the other, obviously being H but I left that unsaid. He is in a R now, so for him to make out with me must be killing him,,because he is not built like that.
I talked about how I thought his being funny was such a compliment because he could reach the dark places in me and that for a relationship, for me, it was a requirement. That I took for granted he knew he was sexy etc., but he said it killed him for me never to need him or ask his advice.
So that is some good conversation, and just the gist of it. It gives me a couple of things to work with moving forward, in terms of 180 s.. Could ask opinion more etc.
I am trying to be patient and there are little steps, but he has made it clear, that he is not coming back to the marriage. So will just have to show that the woman he married has changed. Although I have done a lot of work there is still a ways to go. I still find myself impatient and wanting to manipulate at times, but I will not. At least that is what I will keep telling myself.
