Yes. I apologized to her. I was actually thinking of a small letter to convey to her that I do now get it her "terrified" response. Validate it. Also, I do see how I tore her down via WOA(attack).
W and I each have noticed that winter is a tough time on me / mood. Most likely SAD.
Initially I had said there were only a few moments where I went off. That is true. Recently I've been racking those up and can see why W has had difficulty in me "getting over the R with OM" Call it what you will. While we were engaged, a month or a few weeks prior, I did a similar thing. Based out of jealousy and alcohol. Went off and what not. I see the similarity between that night and the recent one. So there is a pattern. For sure.... My own insecurities, paired with internalized frustrations (til I explode), and alcohol as a surefire way of release them (like it or not).
