Having long email convo with H. Says he feels awful about the make out session, didn't want to leave me with any impressions. I said don't feel awful.
Talked about how I felt I never measured up and he felt inadequate and used.
Talked about sex life and how I felt intimacy allowed the walls to come down and I didn't think that I could bear that so I gave up sex, so to speak.
Talked about how all his sex needs to be relationships or before, me one night stands. He said he can't bear an FWBS relationship because he couldn't think of the person he was with to be with someone else. He offered to set me up lol.
I said I wasn't quite there yet. I know he is dying that I find someone so he can go on without guilt. Little does he know I am in for the ride.
