Why is this happening to me now? X1 has not been on my mind in any real way for over 5 years. And for some reason I took a look at her Facebook page today. Obviously she un-friended me many years ago so I can't see any of her posts. I assume I am doing this because of the shift I have been going through - a re-analysis of my life. I'm almost 40, have not been outside a relationship since I was 20, and have only had 2 women in that time, married to both. They both are a huge part of me.
What is it about being in love that allows one to be neutralized not only to others pain, but to the pain they would themselves be under as well if not for the love for someone else being in the way?
Does that neutralization that love affords you somehow taint it?
