First of all why is EE scary to you? If I had the means to go there I would in a heartbeat. It is something I am thinking about finding a way to.
Not even so much to let her go, more to actually find yourself. Stand up for yourself.
And trust me I understand it isn't easy, but at the end of the day, ask yourself how long can you continue down a path that isn't leading anywhere. I am not saying you should give up, but it might be time to shift gears. Hopefully EE will give you the tools to do it.
Me 37/W 32 S 5 D 4 ILYBNILWY 5/12 Sep 8/12 Starting to find myself 11/12 on