2012 IS DONE AND 2013 IS HERE. I DECLARE IT WILL BE A WONDERFUL YEAR FOR ALL OF US.
I for one am so glad to put this last year behind me.. I am so glad to just keep truckin forward! Oh ya.
The girls go back to school tomorrow. They had a good vacation but school is back in session just in time. WE've got some cabin fever going on here! Bicker , Bicker, stomp, yell. Oh ya. Sisterly love!
Went to visit XH father's side of the family the other day... such a treat to be with these people and still be welcome in their family. The girls got to see their cousin that has kidney failure and was in the hospital for a month. She's feeling better and doing better, but won't be better until that kidney is transplanted.
Well.... interestingly enough... XH has not spoken to the girls in 7 days. I don't think he's ever gone that long since he left. The longest was 4. The good thing is the girls don't seem to miss him, nor are longing to talk to him. They haven't wanted to call him or taken the initiative to call him. He seemed rather pre occupied with OW's daughter Xmas day, by the description I got from D10, but then again I take that with a grain of salt too.
But you know what? I swear him not having the ability to text the girls, or even me for that sake has given us a sense of peace and quiet that I don't think we've had since he left. So perhaps it was a blessing in disguise the girls don't have cell service. Now that I've had some down time with no word from him at all.... it's even more clear to me now how his constant contact with the girls, (just hearing their phones was bad), hearing them complain about "having" to text him, let alone when he'd contact me.... really had EVERYTHING to do with all my backslides!
Once again, if he had GONE QUIETLY.... I would've healed faster and maybe not have grieved so deeply.
It took me over a year to really see the pattern, but it's the truest thing. They don't want to let go, and don't ever really have any intention of letting doing it, yet they don't want to be with you either. Damndest thing, but so glad I finally grasp that truth.
Im hoping to get the girls new phones when the tax return comes. I can't swing it now, but when I get the extra cash, it's much more cost effective to buy the phones and then get the phone cards monthly. Damn.... would I be considered a witch if I didn't give him the girls numbers immediately?
I know the answer that. However the thought gives me such self satisfaction!
Hope everyone is well and their New Year is off to a good start!
