Are you having difficulty understanding what deep and painful loss means?
No, I'm just not sure what you are asking.
Originally Posted By: Kaffe Diem
Can you describe the feeling you had after your M1 failed
This I understand. After M1 failed - I guess it all depends on "when" it failed. This doesn't just happen one day. It's a slow, devilish, creeping process that most people don't even see happening. I could say the writing was on the wall even before we were married. We lived together for years before we got married so how we handled our relationship was well engrained at that point. That said I never saw that as a reason for D early on. I guess when the lawyers were brought in, when I moved out, when it was "real" I felt confused, unsure, without focus.
Originally Posted By: Kaffe Diem
that was a deep and painful loss of the M1 and X1?
This part I am unsure what you mean. Are you asking me if it was a deep and painful loss? If that is what you are asking then no, I would say it was a deep and painful loss. Why? Because when it was first happening I was more confused and unsure than anything else. And, as we determined earlier, due to the fact that X2 came into the picture before D1 was legally finalized I think this didn't allow me to really feel how one should feel when getting D. I was in a completely different place at that point. I was reconnecting with X2 and that's all my mind was on.
